It’s been a while since I’ve written..since I’ve written in this way.
My writings used to be fuelled by emotion, and it seems this post too will be.
I don’t know what’s going on. Things these days are just.. off..unbalanced in a way. And I’ve been feeling all kinds of uneasy.
All these feelings and emotions could be down to me being hormonal.
I’ve been stressing out a lot and worrying about everything soo much that I’ve even been pulling out my hair here and there subconsciously. My hair is in such a state due to hair products and probably not taking proper care of it, that I’m having to get it cut really short. 1 because it needs cutting and 2 I figured, to help me stop playing with it so much and pulling straggly bits off.
(Let me just point out that I do not have bald spots or patches as if I’m simply pulling out clumps. I have a full head of hair. Also I do not enjoy playing and pulling out my hair. It’s quite concerning to me actually, hence the drastic need to get it cut short asap)
I dunno, maybe I’m just tired of life. I haven’t really had a chance to figure out my next move properly. I’m the sort of person who needs to plan things carefully so that I know exactly what is going to happen, how and when.
But you can’t “plan” life. Things are forever changing.
I guess I’m just going to have to trust in myself that I’m doing the right thing(s) for myself and just go ahead and do it instead of always thinking about doing stuff.
Everything will work out.